Jessie J is opening up about experiencing pregnancy loss.
In a raw and honest post on Instagram, the singer revealed she had decided to have a baby on her own but recently went in for a third scan where she was told “there was no longer a heartbeat.”
“💔 Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying ‘seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant’. By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down…” she captioned a photo of herself holding up a positive pregnancy test.
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“This morning, I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don’t know. What I do know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because I’m avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me,” she continues.
“I have done 2 shows in 2 years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it. But in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn’t ever changed and I have to process this my way.”
Jessie goes on to explain that she wants to be “honest and true” instead of hiding what she’s feeling.
“I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did its best.”
She also explains that sharing this message now over social media “feels safer” than having to explain her energy when she does take to the stage.
“To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again. I’m still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok.”
Jessie ends her post by acknowledging the “millions of women all over the world” who have felt this same pain “and way worse.”
According to March of Dimes, an organisation that works on maternal and child health, 1o to 15 percent of women who knew they were pregnant experience pregnancy loss. And in Australia, the stats show 1 in 4 pregnancies end in loss.
In a separate post to her Instagram stories, Jessie thanked her fans for their support:
“Your overwhelming, instant out pour of love is felt, received and appreciated beyond measure. And has got me out of bed this morning. Thank you.”
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*If you or someone you know is experiencing pregnancy loss, please know you are not alone. You can contact PinkElephants.org.au in Australia or reach out to a local helpline in your country.
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